Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Yellow

How do I love you?
Like sweet memories of hip-hop
and penny candies
Or do I love you like stars,
Filling every crevice of eternity?

Do I love you like green, or like red,
Or royal blues?
Like love that is new
Or like pain?

Maybe like hop- scotch and vanilla
ice cream
Like tennis shoes
Or do I love you like Christmas
morning and summer time?

Do I love you like us and we
Like certainty
Like simplicity
Like art and spirituality

How do I love you?

I love you like poetry
Like singing my favorite song in
the shower
Like clear skies, 83 degrees
Like yellow.
- Sade' Miller

Monday, December 21, 2009

Russian Roulette





Desecration of my body
Murder of my untamed soul
That seems like all you can do to survive these streets I call home
It's a game of Russian Roulette
Click click, bang bang
Either you get the bullet or you don't
The casket is exhumed, turfs piled beside the grave
This city called Paterson nothing more than a drug within itself
The fumes are penetrating,
I vomit...
I initiate eager exhuming despite bad scents
I dig up cold earth, exhumed turfs I disperse
Death is uncalled for but it is highly expected
Live for tomorrow
Click, click, I pull the trigger..
Damn, it's not my turn yet
Cuts and burns on my flesh
Hurting myself until that precious moment
This place is intoxicating with death and poison
Eviscerated and torn I rip into the foul offal
With rot and bacteria then stench I'm eager to end this
I regurgitate the cutlets a culinary as sick as can be
Life is found once again yet stillborn diminished to be
Puke and vomit i regurgitate
Death and rot a smile open a demented face phenomenological styled
Click Click.....damn again not this time
My patience grows thinner each time around
Click click.....Boom....yes.....finally lucky round number 7
Disgust and rot fills the open casket
My satisfaction is reached
Murder on my untamed soul
I got the bullet in this game
These streets I live
This hell that I call home
It is my addiction
My grave
Where I rest in peace






Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sisters.

Sisters.

More Than The Meaning That Brings Us Together.

Hips Swaying To The Sound Of A Smooth Rhythm.

Thighs Eyes And Sides , What’s Yours Is Mine.

Fighting Our Way To The Top Above And Beyond.

Sisters.

Looking In The Mirror I See You, I See Me.

Growing And Growing From Mistakes We’ve Made.

Rays From The Sun Stretch Across Your Face.

And From It I See Beauty.

Sisters.

More Than Any Boys Girl.

We , You You And Me, We Are Women.

Mothers Of Tomorrow And Leaders Of Today.

Determined To Do What It Takes.

Sisters.

Laughter And Tears Lay Upon Your Face.

I Am You , You Are Me.

Every Step You Take I Take The Same.

Umoja, Unity Is Us.

Sisters, I Love You.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Facing the Pain



When life hits us
We tend to hide
We close our eyes
And come to senses with our pain
But what happens when we're in denial
That we know deep inside
We are capable of defeating this pain
Knowing that one day our day will come
When the sun shines
And our heads aren't bowed
Or when you face the truth
Hiding is the last thing
You ever think about...

Monday, December 14, 2009

When We

Love naked and free
With eyes running like silks
To breast and thighs
Exploring my birth
Because it is natural for we
Who are sensual and swollen with love.
I love..
Like daisies and honey bees
Ignorant to the lies that men tell
Because we are blessed and contented
In Rhapsody
When we. Simply. Breathe

- Sade' Miller

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Everlasting Love


Two hearts beating as one
We share the same body, mind, and spirit
Two lovers that are intertwined
Our emotions blow each others mind

Hearing your voice makes me smile so bright
But when you're gone for awhile
I am depressed

All things wrong, I have done
My heart breaks little by little each day
Two hearts too far from one another
Without you, I feel incomplete

Only if you would stop leaving me
I might not show it anymore
But baby my heart aches for you
My body craves for your touch!
You don't realize I need you so much

My eyes stay red from crying each night
Baby, please, please!
I don't like being alone
I need you to be here

I want our love to last forever

I'm No Fed-Ex


Look inside of me
Torn apart
Shredded into piece
I'm nothing more than a showcase
Go ahead keep staring
Gaze into my heart
Sink into my soul
Tell me everything in your mind
Because your mission is to hurt me
You're purpose in life is to judge me
How are you to judge me?
I'm not a passage
Don't you dare label me
My heart is a heart
Not the post office
So next time you want to send something
You should know better
Then to send it though me....

Friday, December 11, 2009

Deathly Kiss

So deep in these last moments you lie beneath the ground

A silent still beast of which I played for so long

So dirty is your sullen corpse; so soft your skin and lies

Your blank brown orbs without sheen seem to move side to side

Just a fragment of which you were, your body still entices me

And instills a feeling of remorse that grips my thoughts so tight

No. This is a feeling of me wishing I had done this years ago

To rip every inch of you apart and feast so greatly

Forever I have wanted this from you and forever you pushed me away

Those hours could not make up for it

I wish to do this again

We shall meet in the same pit that shows you purity

And willing I will get what I desire

I wait for rain so you may be buried properly

Yes, my beloved, you are lifeless

Dead

So with these drops I leave you now only regretting that I never got that kiss

Romeo

This tainted love

A one -sided Romeo and Juliet tragedy

With no deaths and a broken heart worth two

Metallic blood drips down my cheeks

Eye stigmata as I drained my last tears

How sweet thine eyes against my figure

Yet the feeling not mutual

This green sinner wishing to be touched by a purple one

And wanting so much more

O, how hath the gods cursed me

To love

And lust

And wish

And want

But never receive

Romeo, Romeo, where for art my Romeo

Why do you still wish for her

When the story says you die with Juliet?

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

1st Place


I wanna feel passion
I wanna feel pain
I wanna weep at the sound of your name
Let love flow freely like blood in my veins
Take me over like endorphins invading my brain
Something so amazing
It makes me insane
Something so original it can't be named
It seems you've won
Your in my hearts hall of fame



His Forever Hostage




seductive kiss Pictures, Images and Photos

How he lays me down on his bed
The smile he gives me before and after each kiss
How he grabs me tight by the waist, close to his body
The echoes of my screams
How I never want him to stop
The way I seduce him
The way he makes my hormones flare
The physical and emotional love that we share
He makes me bite my bottom lip
Gripping the bed as I yell out his name
He took my body captive
Making me his forever hostage
The way I get a tingly feeling when he looks at me
The way I can't help but smile every time I see him
The way he turns me on even if he isn't near me
The way I can only fall asleep after I hear his voice
How he gets aggressive
How he takes my hand and brings me to another world
How he looks into my eyes and tells me that he only wants to be with me
His love for me his attitude towards me
His grace towards me
His way of protecting me
How I always long for his touch
How I want to sleep with him always
How I can't get him out of my mind
How my body is his temple

Numbers


A vessel needing to be loved
Tired of being in an idealistic world
Wanting more than mere dreams
Wishing upon stars each night
Hoping and praying for that day
The day when my dreams come true

A vessel that is loved
Drowning with bliss
Your hug warms my day
Your kissed are like sugar
Your name sends chills down my spine
How I love your touch

Your touch is so amazing
How you treat me with such care
Your smile drives me insane
We share the same heart
The same soul
The same body
Our love is forever, just like numbers

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Hell In a Vessle



This feeling that consumes my soul
My nightmares becoming reality
Every step I take I lose a breath
This pain speeding through my body
My eyes bloodshot
Every body's voice sounding distorted
This sensation that I do not want
My skin with the imprint of some one else's burned into mine
Every familiar site, destroyed
This unknown presence within me
My life not being the same as once it was
Every breath I take gets weaker
This is not what I expected
My insiders getting ripped apart
Everything I once knew is not the truth
This alleged alter ego, is more than meets the eye
My old life, being Stephanie....
Is nothing now.....
Just hell in a vessel

Frustration


The deception that lies waiting inside My mind is about ready to explode Your words baffle me constantly Love me, hate me Make up your fucking mind! This temper of mine does not help at all Talking to you makes me utterly remorse And yet all I can do is smile Even as I cry Or think of ways to commit suicide I love you no matter the circumstance But all I feel is aggravation Disappointment Confusion FRUSTRATION Love Trust Defiance Warmth This little voice in my head Telling me to forget you Telling me you're not good for me But I keep running back Running back to the pain Running back to a person that is too far to get to It's like that never ending hallway dream You just want it to end BUT IT WON'T! You poisoned my heart Corrupted my soul Locked up my body and made me forever yours But I have this inner thought This deadly feeling that is spreading through my body The deception that awaits for me Dammit! This whole thing makes no fucking sense! There's my temper, just thinking about you gets me pissed But thinking about you is all I can do You're the only thing that puts a smile on my face I hate you so much that I love you I love you so much that I hate you Fuck this Now I'm rambling This empty room filled with darkness Darkness is my only friend But in the end I think of you My frustration

kISS ME Judas


Stuck in a box
Longing to free myself from this social bondage
Words of another you took hold of
Believing I would betray you
I stood silent
Thinking actions spoke louder than words
Spoke nothing as you converted
I poured my heart into your "cup"
Filling it with my reality
Reaching out to you
They told me you were unreliable
I called them insane
Expecting you to do the same
1 2 3 Dear Peter
You knew not nor understood what I said
You denied me infront of the city
This love was abusive
Blood was shed
Your scorned me
Pouring acid on my wounds
Thinking I had betrayed you
I guess it was written in the 30 silver sky
The kiss of Judas
Why? Oh Why?
Did you not see I had not failed you.

fck off

What's my offense this time?
Tired of being prosecuted for I crime I did not commit
I'm me
It's too much for you isn't it?
The fact that I can fend for myself
Your snickering doesn't faze me
Who are you to judge me?
I care not what you see in me
Your approval is not needed
Irrelevant to my life is what you are
I'm a mere stranger to you Conrad
You thought you knew me
Ha. I laugh at your ignorance
You're mad aren't you?
It burns your soul to know I will no longer be your Alibi
You can no longer use me
How dare you underestimate me?
Naive I am no longer
I have come to realize I am not the antagonist
But rather the victim
You made me believe wearing my heart of my sleeve was bad
yet in reality it makes me real
So to put it to you plainly FUCK YOU
Fuck you for making me insecure of who i am
Fuck you for making me feel like such a bad person
Fuck you for hurting me emotionally and mentally
I don't need you
I am me
Now i leave telling you good bye
While thanking you for teaching me about myself
I am Me

writers note: I was angry...yes i curse. big deal. move on.

Green Sinner



This feeling clutching my heart
A vice of green sin tightening when I see her on you
Even in the same building as you
So proud am I of who I have around my waist
And I know that summertime romance ended abruptly
Yet forever within my mind this lust
This craving for you; your flesh and mind and heart and being
It will tell me different than what I know
And make me want you for my own so that I may be satisfied
So I could be her in those moments you had
Lips pressed like rose petals
Poets can’t describe with infinite words the feelings I have for you
Nor can the Devil create a sin greater than this
Ireland is not as green as my eyes
Or flowers as pink as my cheeks
Or a room filled with the most beautiful blue butterflies to be and ever will be, with feathers on their wings, fluttering with all their might
As uneasy and joyous as my stomach when I see you
But this snake on my body
Around my heart
Within my mind
It pulls me further away from and I can’ have
Into a reality I do not wish to face
Not infatuation or obsession or love
Just want to have her gone and there be only you
And to have that kiss stop playing in my head

Aggravation



The domination of the nation which I call my mind
Controlling aggravation that I more than wish to keep inside
Infatuation
Elation
Then you bring about this frustration
Agitation coming alive
God!
Can't you make up your mind!
(Let me not get upset)
But nonetheless
So indecisive as to what you desire
Getting hopes up then bringing them higher
Stop
Take ten steps back
And start over from the beginning
Again and again
Never ceasing to annoy with this fickleness
You pull the strings
And all the things
That make me tick and tock
Deep breaths
Relaxation
As I try not to commit red sin
Yet you continue to sit on the fence
Tease me with glimpses of green grass
Knowing precisely what you're doing
Whether consciously or not
Just give me an explanation
As to why you can't solve this simple situation
Hurry!
Before there is a decapitation
Slight motivation in simple lines
Just find the answer that lies inside
To stop the aggravation within my mind

That's Why Ya Butt Stink!


Guys tell lies that light the sky in red heat
Burn me up and create hate
for your sex
Because of all the deceit
Nigga ...I... Will... Kill ... You
Got me all stressed out
You act like u don't know
What this shit is about
Can't think or concentrate
You won't even try to relate
Moving on say I'm done
Then ya ass wanna run
Full of shit and nothingness
I can't stand you
That's Why Ya Butt Stink!!!

J. White

Black Folks

For every fight for every dream
For every child by all means

For every sunrise that sets
And every first love met

In the blood that was shed
Long lives the dead

Embrace my past for the future
And pave it in gold
I am the product
For all those that were bold
Brown skin sun kissed
They expect greatness in tenfold


j. white 8)

Dear Mother


Kinky hair, hips that sway
We create colorful midnights
And African heat
Singing praises to Mulungu and Nyambe
To Allah and to God
With Our Yellow, Brown, Blue-black hands
Outstretched to skies that my mother bore
Dealt the labor pains of humanity
And now we dare speak of reparations
Of oceans, and wind, and earth, and beauty
I let you love me with lies that I believed
Promising forever like it was yours to keep
But maybe our love is only temporary
Too soon replaced with famine and mosquitoes and Blood Diamonds
With slavery and genocide and war and AIDS
Or maybe our love isn't love at all
Dear mother, Do you love me?

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Gurl Stop

If you ever disrespect me again
Know that we can't be friends
See
I'm bringing this bullshit to an end

3 steps back or get ready
For a black "gurlllll please" attack
Followed by a head roll
And some finger snaps

Hands on your hips
And poke out your lips
Talk about her momma
(If she got one)
And her father

Speak really loud
Gurl you gotta stir up a crowd
Poke out your booty
Slap her silly
If she start acting snooty

Get ready
Take it steady
Make her into the new Ugly Betty
She don't know who she messing with
I'ma make this right
Don't you know?
Gurl please
You tlkn 2 Ms. White

Wishing Watching Wondering

Jasmine

Where does it end
And how do we begin?

The magical, mystical confines
Of a reality defied

You were mine from the start
Your name etched across my heart
And you saved me
And we sailed across troubles
In Noah's arc

Of course... this never happened

And so I'm stuck
Watching you
Wishing you
And I were one

Until that prize is won

I wonder how other dreams
Have begun

Mental Picture

Jasmine White



Stand still
I need a metal picture...

Reality so unreal
The only way for me to believe
Is to feel

And so I'm feeling you
Feeling me
Feeling us

Need to remember...

The way you lick your lips before you laugh
And that ashy spot on your...

Need to remember...

The way your lips taste
This moment I won't waste
As I explore this physical, mental, emotional way
That my feelings and heart sway

Make it last
Not to fast
Take it slow

I need to remember
I'm taking a mental picture
J. White

Friday, December 4, 2009

Never Ending Love


The eyes of sorrow

The face of pain

The walk of hurt

Yet the love is in our veins

More powerful than a title wave

In our hearts love is saved

For one day he will be mine and I will be his

In his heart is where I long to live

The lonely nights

That’s so hard to forgive

Soon was a bright light

I thought I would never be his

My tears fell hard

My brain opened wide

My thoughts started to pour

As I asked myself why

The days became months

The months soon became years

The years felt like eternity

Our love is forever never ending

Mirror of the Mind

In the process of guarding my heart
I've forgotten what love is
Lust became love
And love became extinct
I cry
Tears because there is no other rejoice
No longer searching but still I wonder
.... where my heart belongs
and if i'll ever find it




Can true happiness be more than a phrase
No application needed for it to join my life
How am i unwhole but still living
My heart a metaphor in the winds
waiting for something familiar
to bring succulence to the miniature cracks of ash that lie on its' surface


I am an unlit candle




**Written November 23, 2008

Thursday, December 3, 2009

New Beginning

Tears started to fall against my chest

As my heart was being filled wth stress

The pain was making me depressed

Why it just couldn't be put to rest

My internal love was put on play

That girl didn't want to go away

The glare of the tunnel

Wanting me to procede forward

Yet something guided me to turn away

My quintessence wanted to flee

Why everyone couldn't believe

My emotions were being torn completely

This shared love was to deep

Are my fears going to end?

The day i can yet smile again

The night i can kiss you so freely

Is this the start of a new beginning

When Beauty Is Lost.

She thinks there is no way to obtain it.
Beauty that is.
She glances at the facade presented to her.
Who is this and where did they come from?
Kinky hair. An ample nose. Plump lips.
Breasts that peak out from above and beyond.
And curves like a country back road.
According to the man, that’s not beautiful.
That’s just negro features.
She smacks herself and turns to the reflection.
Nothing has disappeared.
The despicable duplicate still in sight.
Her backside sliding down the cold wall until it hits the tile.
Cut. Cut. Slice.
Until all hate has emptied her veins.
The beauty trying to escape but it is too late.
She’s gone.
And all along it was there.
Beauty that is.

Shattered.

My glass was half full.

And you saw it half empty.
Trying to maintain balance it leaned from side to side.
And somehow you managed to get it to run over.
It fell of course.
And out poured your bitchy ways, split personalities,
name calling and facades.
I picked up the glass and pain.
Pain, pain, pain.
Thinking this anguish was coming from my crushed feelings
of the glass being broken.
But it wasn’t.
Turning over my hands and blood.
Gushing and gushing.
So I blacked.
And I blacked.
And I blacked some more.
And it felt good.
It felt good to see you have nothing to say.
It felt good to finally get things off of my chest.
And it felt good to lose you.